Songs have always been my outlet, my way to escape the world around me, and clear my head. These days, songs are what speak to me the most. I find the lyrics of the song are just as important, if not more important, than the beat.
4 months ago today, you left this world for our Heavenly home. Even though I miss you daily, I continue to find God through it all. From the big things, like making sure the girls and I are taken care of, to the little things, like heart hugs from stories or memories of you, at just the right time. And,sometimes, it’s certain songs that will come on the radio. And while my heart is aching to see you again, they give me comfort and hope.
🎵This isn’t what I’d choose
But it’s where I’m finding You
When I’m broken and undone
Your mercy’s just begun……
Your hands are reaching out
You hold me through the storm🎵
This isn’t what I’d choose. If I had the choice, I’d have you here with me. But, it IS where I am finding God most these days. Most people aren’t able to see God through the storm that’s going on in their lives until it all has passed, and they are able to reflect upon it. Since I am still trying to piece life together without you, I am doing a lot of reflecting during the storm. And, even though we can’t see the bigger picture, I am able to see what God is doing in my midst. Even though I am not able to explain it in detail now, He is pouring His mercy out on me in ways I would have never imagined.
And it is amazing to think that His mercy has JUST begun!
Lamentations 3:22-23 reminds me of this “The steadfast love of the Lord never ceases; his mercies never come to an end; they are new every morning; great is your faithfulness.”
The line in that song that says “You hold me through the storm” brings Psalm 34:18 to mind where it says “The Lord is close to the brokenhearted.” And Psalm 147:3 reassures me “He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds.”
And the lyrics in this song speak to my soul.
My heart is breaking
In a way I never thought it could
My mind is racing
With the question, “are you still good?”
Can you make something
From the wreckage?
Would you take this heart
And make it whole again?
Though the mountains may be moved into the sea
Though the ground beneath might crumble and give way
I can hear my Father singing over me
“It’s gonna be ok, it’s gonna be ok”
So much truth. So applicable to my life right now. Just what I needed to hear!
Sitting at my computer, sharing this, I look to my left. And pinned on the wall is a bible verse that was given to me…Isaiah 46:4b “I am he who will sustain you. I have made you and I will carry you; I will sustain you and I will rescue you.”
Just like the song reminds me…I’m gonna be okay!
These are the songs that speak to my heart today. What are the songs that are speaking to you today?