Plans

2 years ago we had the biggest, scariest, most exciting event/decision happen since our bankruptcy. We closed on our house!

But we didn’t just close on any house, we closed on the house we built together. We picked out the floor plan, colors, options, wrote scriptures on the wooden beams, and prayed over it all, with hopes and dreams of what this house would become, and stand for.

Now I sit here, in this house we built together, where the the halls are still echoing your voice, your memory, your presence….saddened by those hopes and dreams, not because they are no longer attainable, but because they are missing your puzzle piece.

This was not the plan! But then scripture reminds me, that was not in MY plans, but it was in His plans! Proverbs 16:9 says “The heart of man plans his way, but the Lord establishes his steps.” Jeremiah 29:11 tells us that the Lord “know(s) the plans I have for you….” I don’t understand why this was in His plan, but lean on God’s word when, in the rest of Jeremiah 29:11, God tells me his plans are “to give me hope and a future. ” And remember that our ways are not the Lord’s ways (Isaiah 55:8) . I just have to “Trust in the Lord with all your (my) heart, and do not lean on your (my) own understanding.” (Proverbs 3:5)

Because none of this would ever make sense otherwise.