Author Archives: brandymazz

Music is my outlet. It has gotten me through some tough times in life. Now is no different. Music speaks to me differently now. I hear things I haven’t before. One song that I have listened to countless times before has a line that really struck me the other night. “I am not skilled toContinue reading “Understanding”

This is what the year in review looks like for me. It looked like loss and grief. It started in March when things started shutting down due to quarantine. I suffered the loss of my life as I knew it. On Friday, the 13th, the world stopped. My children didn’t walk back into a schoolContinue reading “Focus”

Your name is on a memorial ornament made out of shells…… I should be calling your name while looking FOR shells. Your face is in our yearly ornament with angel wings….your face should have been the one PICKING out our ornament this year. So many things that should have been that are not. We willContinue reading “The Importance of an Event”

Days when I look in the mirror and see this, I notice ALL my flaws. The unruly hair flying away, the facial hair that I have been neglecting to get rid of, how my glasses sitting on my nose point out the fact that it’s not straight …… the days when I feel so unattractive.Continue reading “Beautifully Flawed”

There has been a theme over the past few days that I felt like I needed to share. Over the years, God had been preparing me for this journey that I am currently on. I have had many conversations like this, but the one the other night with a friend really brought it to light.Continue reading “Preparation”

People keep telling me that I am so strong to be able to handle Rick’s death the way I have. While listening to music one night, a thought popped into my head of “Why are they so surprised? Shouldn’t we all be living in a way that show’s God’s strength? Isn’t this what faith is?”Continue reading “Faith”

Every year, we have thousands of wildfires that burn millions of acres. Sometimes they are far away and don’t affect you. Others are close to home. A few years ago, in an area within a couple hours drive from where I’m from, they had a wildfire that lasted around 2 weeks, and burned over 17Continue reading “Beauty From Ashes”

Six months. How has it been half a year since you left us on earth and went to your heavenly home? In a previous post, I detailed out what the last 5 months have been like.  These past couple of weeks could be summed up with the word WEEPY. I think of you often, whichContinue reading “Each Day is a Gift”